Posted by: macmoney1986 | May 8, 2008

…paved paradise, and put up a parking lot

I have a friend name Becky who calls it a “necessary tragedy.”

There is this sweet old lady, Josephine, who looks at it and says, “That’s life.”

I look at it and a lyric comes to mind.

Don’t it always seem to go
That you don’t know what you got ’til its gone.
Paved Paradise, and put up a parking lot.

The thing is that, here I sit in my dorm room. Stuff is packed up, my drawers are empty, there is still clothes laying on the floor and some in the closet, and sadness has taken over. Last night I talked with my friend Becky about being sad, and we tried to look at it as the end of this chapter of life. She continued to run with the book metaphor, but it was almost 2 in the morning, so I let it slide.

I’m just really going to miss the few friends I made while here. I never even said goodbye to my friend Alyssa. And please don’t get me started on Bogner. The very man who helped me get through all the tough stuff this year. He is a brilliant thinker, and he was my best friend here this year. I know I wasn’t his, and that’s cool. But he’s the one person I confided in the most and I felt like we had a strong developed relationship.

And now its all going to be wasted. I’m most likely never going to see Jordan again. And besides a facebook comment here or there, I’m never gonna talk to him either. That saddens me.

Here I am… I am about to embark on a life altering, life saving, surgery. I’m about to change my life forever, and in the process I am dumping all my friends. I don’t have a “God-centered” group of friends like this at home, and here I am throwing away this one. And there is nothing I can do about. I can’t NOT throw it away, because all of our lives are going different directions. We are all moving on… with the exception of Alyssa, but she is still learning here at BBC.

Last night at Bethel Baptist Church, I just sat in silence. Stunned at the pain in my heart for knowing that this will never be again. This will never happen again. Never again will I listen to Jordan “wing” a lesson, never again will I hear and sing a-long with Alyssa playing the piano… and it saddened me. I’m not a cry-er, so don’t worry about that. I didn’t do that.

But I got sad, I am sad, and I will be sad. The joys of being home will help me get over the sad, but my brain and my heart will never EVER forget Jordan, Alyssa, and Becky.

So, don’t it always seem to go,
That you don’t know what you got, ’til its gone.
Paved paradise and put up a parking lot….

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Posted by: macmoney1986 | December 5, 2007

…but Baby it’s cold outside.

Oh, just look around you. It is so easy to know that it is Christmas time. There are lights, trees, snowmen, and nativity scenes everywhere you look. You hear Christmas music, and see Santa at the mall. Oh yes, it is Christmas time. And isn’t it beautiful? Oh yes, indeed it is beautiful. There is nothing more beautiful. The snow on the ground, the sparkling light of the night reflecting off the snow; it’s practically magical.

What is it that you think of when you think of Christmas? Do you think of Presents? Family? Mistletoe? What do you think about? What do I think about? Honestly, I think about my family, and my church’s Christmas Eve service, and Amy Grant Christmas music. I love those Amy Grant Christmas albums.

Why hasn’t Jesus been mentioned yet? Is it because I’m not a Christian? Hardly! It is in fact, because in Today’s world, we do not value Jesus as highly as we do Family, or mistletoe. But Why? Is this holiday not because of him; because of his birth? So remember that… on this day, on this month… this time of year:

JESUS IS THE REASON FOR THE SEASON!!!! Don’t you forget this. Do NOT forget the most important thing of all!!!

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Posted by: macmoney1986 | November 27, 2007

The Home Stretch…

Well readers, its officially the home stretch for my first semester of college. It’s been rough at times, but its been a blast. I am majorly looking forward to Christmas Break. The semester will be done, and my family will be getting together for the holiday. The WHOLE family. I am excited.

This break was fun. I saw “American Gangster,” with my cousin Eric. It was a great movie, but its not what was expected. But overall… definitely see this movie. You can wait until the DVD though.

I played the Nintendo Wii for the first time ever. That was a blast, except VERY tiring. The boxing game is nuts. Madden 08 was a lot of fun too. I sucked at Tiger Woods 2007.  But it was a fun night.

This blog is kinda short, and there isn’t much for you to think on, but its my first day back from break, give a brotha a chance.

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Posted by: macmoney1986 | November 16, 2007

Zero Score and Four Years from now…

This post is not such much a biblical post, as it is a realist post. Sometimes, we just have to give up. Not give up in the sense of stopping the pursuit of your dreams, but think of it more like this. The pursuit of our dreams is more like a giant maze. At the end is a big hunk of cheese, and at the beginning is us. Now, We can smell the cheese from the beginning of the maze, and like the great math equation, the shortest distance between 2 points in a straight line, so we head straight for the smell. That’s all well and good, but the corridor you first head down is a dead end, and so is the second, and the third. So here you are on corridor number four, and you realize that its once again a dead end. You aren’t gonna give up on the maze, just this path. That is the point I am at.

Let me be lame for a little. I have this crush, and its on a girl, (sorry boys… still not gay). The issue isn’t me having the nerves to talk to her, even though I don’t. The issue at hand is that she has a boyfriend back home. A boyfriend that she is very committed to. So, I’m just gonna give up here. I don’t understand this crush at all. It’s not physical… it’s on a totally different plane. But I need to give up. Its destiny. And its so much bigger than just me and my feelings. It’s her strive for a relationship with God. It’s her giving God everything she has and in return getting a great guy to take care of her. Its about me and my walk with the Lord. I have a lot of growing to do. (This is turning out more biblical than I intended. Not a bad thing).  I have a lot of personal things to deal with. God will bring a girl into my life when the time is right. I am just not ready.

But let me tell you something. Baptist Bible College sucks for single students. Nothing against the college, but the atmosphere. So much pressure is placed. I have heard about relationships and future spouses in EVERY SINGLE ONE of my classes. With teachers, chapel speakers, the President, and faculty giving us these constant reminders, of course we are going to be searching for THEE ONE, instead of waiting for God’s divine intervention. The student may say that they are waiting for God to lay out his plan, but they are searching. Jeez, us freshman just had a whole Chapel service on sex and relationships. SERIOUSLY?!?!?!? Lord only knows what Monday’s will be about. And if you don’t want students to look for mates, don’t challenge the boys to take up one females lunch tray. Yeah, its a nice gesture… but what is it seriously leading to. Its hypocracy!! The pressure on the campus is OVERWHELMING!!!!!!

I think I am done ranting now… I Promise you’ll get a better one later. And to the girl I spoke of earlier… like I said before. “Just enjoy it while it lasts, because in four years, you’ll be back home and I won’t be around.”

Sincerely,
Tommy

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Posted by: macmoney1986 | November 8, 2007

Where is the Hope????

Look around today, what do you see? Turn on the news, what is on? Death, Murder, Robbery, Rape, Fire, Lost Homes, Destruction… it’s all bad. Drug dealers are in the streets, condoms are in the schools, and homosexual marriage is in the church. Where is the Hope? What are we to look forward to? Where is the Hope?

I have seen children eagerly flipping through hymnals to sing along. I have seen teens raising money for children in Africa. I have seen churches take families under their wing when that family struggles financially. For there, young Christian, is our Hope.  God will work through us to further his kingdom. God is the God of the gentle breeze, but we must remember that the same God of that gentle breeze is also the Lord of the rough and tumble. He is a powerful God. Steven Curtis Chapman sings that “Jesus is the King of the Jungle!” And when you remember that he is the King of the Jungle, you realize that the drugs will fall aside. Guns will fall aside. Murder will fall aside. Jealousy will fall aside. And we will be left with the goodness, the joy, the happiness, and the perfection of our Lord. Jesus is coming and that is our Hope. Our Hope is in the power of Jesus. That’s where our Hope is in this country, and that’s where our Hope is in life!

Amen!

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Posted by: macmoney1986 | November 7, 2007

STRESS…………

            Throughout the day, a person goes through numerous stress causing environments. Most of these environments are not overly stressful. They may cause anger or worry, but nothing over the top. The real dangers are the stressors that you face daily that cause you major anger or worry. Going through this too much will eventually cause you physical sickness, but how?

            All that stress on your body causes distress, a negative stress reaction. Distress can disturb the body’s internal balance, or equilibrium. And this is what causes you to become physically sick, and this sickness can have damaging effects. Physical sicknesses such as high blood pressure, upset stomach, headaches/migraines, sleep problems, and chest pain can all be caused by stress. Stress is even linked to deaths caused by lung ailments, heart disease, cirrhosis of the liver, and suicide. (Stress).

            It’s always sad to hear about teenagers taking their own lives and leaving notes that read about how they just couldn’t deal with the stress anymore. Or to hear about people who turn to sex, drugs, and or alcohol just to release their stressor’s stranglehold on their lives. Everyone needs a release, but it is not acceptable when that release turns to even worse outlets.

            Keeping proper perspective is the most important think when it comes to dealing with stress. If we lose focus on God and his love for us we become surrounded by the let downs of the world. Frank Peretti writes it like this in his book, “The Wounded Spirit.” He writes, “We all have our ‘difficult seasons.’ Some of us are in the middle of one right now. We don’t like them, of course, but they do have a way of finding their place in the overall scheme of our lives, welcome or not. There will be pain, and years afterward, there will still be questions. The sweet part of this is, as long as the Lord God is guiding your life, more years and more wisdom will bring a better perspective of what those tough were all about. So trust God. He’ll make things clear eventually. (187)”

            Frank points out that we need to focus on God. Stressors like a rip in the family, a death, a robbery, and a broken relationship can lead a person down dark and crooked roads, but if we focus on God he’ll lead us down the straight and narrow and be the light on our path. We also need to realize that God does not want us to through trouble alone. He puts people in our lives that we can turn to and ask for help.

            Peretti also writes, “Comforting others puts our pain into perspective. (186)”

            Sometimes we may feel like what we are going through is unconquerable. We are in a fifty foot deep whole with no ladder. Then we may learn of someone else’s struggles and pains. Theirs may make your problems look like nothing more than a pimple. Instantly you can go from “woe is me” to “thank you for all the blessings you have given me,” and then God will help you help that person.

            Let me give you one personal story to show you what stress can to a person physically. I have always been a bigger kid growing up, and it seemed I found my niche playing football. That was my calling. When I was 9 years old, my school district’s high school football coach told me he couldn’t wait to have me play high school football. I loved playing in the football games, but I dreaded practice. But every year I decided to quit football, I wanted back in, until high school. A knee injury in 8th grade kept me from playing that whole season, but I did make it back by the end of it. But being bigger and having knee problems is an unsolvable equation.

            When I finally started playing high school football in 10th grade, my knees were to the point where I needed constant icing and medication for them. They hurt 24/7. This kept from living up to my high school coach’s expectations for me and angered him. Side comments made by him led to verbal arguments and even a physical altercation in which I ended up be whipped around by my helmet and spat in the face.

I started missing school a lot. I had horrible stomach cramping and vomited daily. The school nurse, who was a Christian, had recognized my signs of stress and started quizzing me on the cause of it. When I told her it was football and my coaches, the logical thing to do was quit football. And I did. Not because I’m a quitter though, but because the stressor in my life was leading me to worse and worse physical conditions and it had to be stopped. I’m not going to lie to you. Before I quit football, thoughts of suicide were in my head. I spent 3 hours one night lying on my bed with a hunting knife, constantly putting it to my throat. I prayed for 3 solid hours that night and handed my situation over to God. He wasn’t done with me yet.

But this illustrates how easy it is for stress to lead you down terrible roads. But once I put God into focus, everything became clear. There is a Johnny Nash song from 1972 that sums of this feeling. The first verse of “I can see clearly now” read like this, “I can see clearly now, the rain is gone, I can see all obstacles in my way. Gone are the dark clouds that had me blind. It’s gonna be a bright (bright), bright (bright), Sun-Shiny day.” (Nash).

 

 

 

 

 

Works Cited

Peretti, Frank. The Wounded Spirit. Tennessee: Word Publishing, 2000.

Stress, Anxiety, and Depression: How They Affect Your Health. Ed. Amal Chakraburtty, MD. 2007. Web MD. November 7, 2007. <http://www.webmd.com/anxiety-panic/stress-anxiety-depression>.

Nash, Johnny. “I Can See Clearly Now.” 1972

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Posted by: macmoney1986 | October 31, 2007

The stretch, and the pitch…

I would like to welcome you all to my weblog. This is my first entry. I decided to start this as I was reading Curt Schilling’s weblog. For those of you who don’t know, Curt Schilling is pitcher in MLB. This past season he pitched for the 2007 World Series Champion Boston Red Sox. He is a veteran pitcher who has officially filed for free agency.

My hope would be that he came back to Philadelphia. It would be amazing to see him in that Phillies uniform again.

As for me… I am a freshman at Baptist Bible College. I am 21. I have no kids and no girlfriend. I love my family with all my heart. I love my God with all my heart. If you ask me my religion, I’d tell you I’m a Christian. If you asked me what type of Christian, I would tell you a “saved one.”

Now… you could label me as an arminianist (pardon the spelling on that), which is someone who is not a Calvinist. Calvinists believe in pre-destination and arminianists believe in free will. Basically. Now, there are different levels of each, and I won’t really get into that. I would call myself a protestant. But being at a baptist school, I’ll probably be lynched if I say that out loud. I believe in Jesus Christ. I believe that Jesus Christ was both wholly God and wholly man. He was born of the virgin Mary, and he was crucified by the Jews on Calvary. He rose from the dead 3 days later and ascended into Heaven 40 days after. He will come again. I believe in Heaven and Hell. Every single one of us is going to Hell unless you have confessed with heart and soul that Jesus Christ is Lord. John 14:6-7 reads “Jesus saith unto him, ‘I am the way, the truth, and the life: no man cometh the Father, but by me.’” (KJV). That is the truth. The only way to Heaven is by Jesus Christ. He died on the cross as payment for my sins. I was bought by the blood of the Lord.

Everything else is doctrinal. But that is the only piece needed for Heaven. If you believe in your heart that Jesus Christ is Lord and you have handed over your life to him, then you are saved. Live the good life, and go and spread the good word.

Have great day, and God bless.

Sincerely,
Tommy

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